I've been back in the city for about two weeks now.
The moment I stepped off the plane and I saw snow I really wanted to punch the weather in the face. Let me be frank…I hate New York snow. It only looks pretty the moment it falls and then a hour later it's brown and yellow from animals and humans. I'd really like to see this weather turn around soon. I this is my least favorite season in the city.
Well it's back to the grind. I went in for my callback earlier last week and I should be hearing back pretty soon. They even followed me on Twitter the other day so I'm wondering if they are checking me out social media wise too? If so it's all fine with me. I've got nothing to hide and I keep it pretty Pg-13 on all my social media stuff. I feel like I've come back home really refreshed and with a more positive attitude on a lot of things. If there is one thing I'm pretty known for it's my resilience to a lot of things. Before I left I went in on someone via text because I was sick and tired of everything that was going on. The next morning I re-read over some of what I sent and I really felt bad about it, but I think it was time to get at least some of what was going on off of my chest and even when I look back now I don't feel like I should feel bad about it. It's partially what I had to say and how I felt. I went home to get my balls back and I did. I just laughed at that! :) balls… hahah. What the future holds with that entire situation I really have no idea and it's really been on the back burner for me because I've gotten really busy with finding out what's the next route with me in life.
Believe it or not I'm still in my 20's and I've got a lot of magic still to do before I even see 30. I've just been thinking about what's best for Tyree right now and it's something I haven't done in a long time. I do for others a lot and sometimes I end up empty handed and it's time too turn that all around. I want to get my career back on track, and for all of you who don't know I'm going back to school in the fall or spring for either Law School or Secondary Education. While I was at home my parents took me out to eat and we talked about the possibilities of me going back to college to just have something else to fall back on. I don't want to be serving, counting someone else's money, or bar tending for the rest of my life. I know there's more to my life than that. My three main schools I have my eyes on are NYU Law School, Columbia Teachers College, and Brooklyn College. I've already scheduled a campus tour with Brooklyn College because it reminds me of Montevallo in the academic area. Parents are very involved with this and I actually like it, lets them be apart of my life although they are over 800 miles aways.
I've started back dieting…Oh they whoas of being a Gay man living in the city! Yeah, I'm on a low-carb diet that I've got to stick with till May. So far I've lost about 9 lbs, so I'm pretty satisfied right now. I've been doing a new workout routine that I like and so far my abs have hurt everyday. I don't want to give too much detail into what I'm doing just because I'm doing a "top secret" project and I can't really say anything till I'm done.
I go to the gym a lot. If anyone was to ask any of my friends where I am they would probably tell you "He's at the gym!" This is so true about me. I go to a new gym that recently opened and it has many different people that come through there and the other day was Chest day and let me say that I honestly don't go to my gym to check out other guys. I might glance or try to see what someone else is doing so I can try whatever they are doing later on myself, but the other day takes the cake. I was minding my business at bench press and this guy walks over to me while I'm working out and is just smiling. Now I will say I knew who this guy was because to be honest I might have seen him in some of the porn I've masturbated too. (I warned you.) I sit up and I kinda acknowledge him because I'm not a rude person so I nod and smile back and ask if he wants to use the bench. He says no and then says "I've been watching you for awhile now, you're getting lean." I said "Thanks" and was about to go back to working out and he said "I wonder what it would be like to wrestle with you under the sheets." BOOM!!! My mind goes blank, I give a blank stare, I felt like everybody in the gym heard him say that and I didn't even know the type of response that I should give to that. He looks at me and says "What? Can't take a compliment? You're hot dude get with it!" He smiles and walks off and I stand there looking like fool like someone had gave me some bad news. Afterwards it did make think that I should start being more appreciative and take compliments as they come and not be so shocked by them. I think this was due to the fact this was someone I know from a far..as in on porn websites, NYC events and parties around the city.
On that note I guess we can talk about where I'm at in relationships. Relationship is a very big word I've learned recently and I find myself learning what the meaning of that is. I've also learned that I don't know how to just "go on dates" with people. I generally rush things because I'm so use to being in a relationship and that's what I'm use too. I won't go into detail about my trials and tribulations of being in relationships because that's the past and it's going to stay there. Moving FORWARD, but I will let you all in on this. A lot of my friends are boo'ed up with people and I find myself not in the least bit envious at all. But right now I'm very to myself, I can be very picky, but at the same time I'm very patient with waiting on the universe with whatever it has for me and I will wait on that! Whether I'm dating someone and that blossoms into something more then that's AMAZING. If not it's a lesson learned. Reasons and Seasons. I stay doing things in my job and my career, and I'm trying to grow in my career and as person so that I really can be the best man for someone out there and in turn they be the best man for me. I've always said I'm not the type of guy who needs the attention from others by saying "I'm single" or "I'm lonely and I need a man." The thirst here in NYC is alive and well and the pickings are great, but I'm taking the time to take care of Tyree first and foremost. I feel like when someone notices that you aren't thirsty like the rest, or they notice that you are concentrating on you and they respect that, then that's the type of guy I want to be with. I'll be good to you if you're good to me. Until then it's continued growth for me as a person.
Well my hands are tired…hope you enjoyed!
PEACE, LOVE AND LIGHT!
P.S. Remember to share your light! ;)
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