Redemption

Redemption: The action of saving or being saved from sin, error, or evil

I'm off with a start into Week 3 of my journey. Week 2 was very good to me. Last week I was really focusing on my form in the gym, and making small changes in my eating. I'm not doing a crazy cut right now, because I'm not supposed to do a full cut until March so I've had to make sure I'm really eating 6 times a day...which is HARD as hell for someone like me who is always on the go. I've been pushing some really heavy weight in the gym. Making sure that my upper and lower body are both balanced and even. I've really started giving myself more credit for what I've been doing over the years with being consistent with exercising and living a pretty healthy lifestyle. I'm really starting to see that for myself, and that's important because a lot of the time I hear people tell me how good I look etc, but I don't always see that for myself because I always think there is more I can improve on, and I can, but I'm learning to start appreciating myself a little bit more.

This is hard work for me. It's one of my main goals to get my physique and health sharp as I go into my 30's. I've been working on this on and off sense I was in college and that was some years back.


Over the past 3 years that I've been here I finally feel like I'm working towards the things that I moved here for. True I wasn't going to move to NYC at all, but I'm here and I feel like I've found my way here and the life I'm striving to live here. I miss home, and the comforts of Alabama, but I see myself doing great things for myself and others. It's crazy to think that finding this love for fitness is bringing back into doing the things I love to do and saving me from errors in the past. Still learning, I'm not perfect, and I'm not going to be perfect. I'm learning to make myself relatable and understanding where others are coming from.

This past Sunday at church was really good. The lesson was something I needed to here. I deal mentally with issues from my past and there are times where I will let it get the best of me, but now I'm in place where it's not holding me back anymore. My past doesn't hold me back, it's me holding me back. Now that I've stopped focusing on my mistakes and I'm looking more and more to my present and future it's been really good. I've been cleaning a lot of my social media of people I'm not really in contact or consistent communication with, just because I want to keep my circle small, and as I've said in previous entries, I only want those who've been rocks in my life to have intimate access to me. Of course I've got my instagram, and I love sharing myself with the world on there, and I'm doing it in a very positive way, because I do want people to be able to reach out to me for information on fitness and also build a reputation for myself as a mogul. Right paths, right tracks. I'm learning from a lot of people, and people are helping me and I'm so grateful for that.


I only strive to do better for myself. I'm living in my authenticity. No toxicity.

J. Cole asked a question "Do You Want To Be Happy?" My answer is "YES!" I'm happy with where my life is heading. I'm happy with a better sense of who I am. I want the next chapter of my life to be filled with more good moments, even when bad moments happen I want to grow and learn from them, and not feel weighed down by them. I'm not so focused on being in a relationship...that's not my MAIN priority, I didn't come to NYC for all that. That's a bonus in my opinion. I came here to forge a career, and be a comfortable in my sexuality, and build a sense of family for myself here.

Here's to my redemption, Here's to LIFE!

LOVE, PEACE, and LIGHT

-Tyree

HEY! I SEE YOU 2016!

I made it through my first week of the New Year!

Now we've hit the ground running on my Journey to 30 and it's so exciting. The past week I've been dedicating myself not only to my fitness goals, but spending time figuring out what my next plan of action is too put myself out there in this entertainment world and fitness world. Meeting with people on how to brand myself accordingly, but still staying authentic to who I am and who I'm becoming as a man/person. The outpouring of love that has been shown to me over the last month or so has been really warming for me. Just rebuilding my confidence and not letting the this place swallow me whole. It's been really cool to see people from my past reconnect with me and reach out to me. Coming out of my emotional rut and feeling good. I love smiling. I love the fact that I can have fun, but switch to business mode with ease. Finding my love for the arts again. I restarted my backstage account at the behest of my agent, and I got a gig..which is really good. I was losing faith in my abilities as an artist and I think the past few years here in NYC and not really working, I've gained some life experiences, which is now informing my work. I remember my teachers in college once told me that near my 30's and on is where I'd really start getting work...they were SO right. I've got to give that to them.

I'm creating my own brand as person, finding my niche', paving my own way. This is really fun and cool. After seeing the "The Color Purple" a few weeks back it really helped my find hope in myself. Also I've never really cried during a show, like I did that production. Seeing the whole cast work together to bring such a wonderful story together. Keeping it so simple, yet powerful and moving. I've always felt like Ms. Celie in some ways and seeing her pull through made me entire heart beat with joy, and filled my face with tears of happiness.

Seeing my favorite musical "The Wiz" being retold for a new generation, and Hamilton...that's a whole blog by itself. Just seeing people of color onstage at this time in my life has been just what I need.

Walking proudly in my own skin. Clearing out my past and building a new future, with some old people, and many new ones. Getting fit and reaching my goals. Remembering ONE GOAL, ONE STEP at a time. That's the only way you get there.

Love, PEACE, light, LIFE

-Tyree