To Each His Own In His Own Time

You wouldn't believe how I've been mulling over writing this blog over the past few weeks. I've been coming home late at night saying to myself "Tyree, write this blog before you go to bed!" Instead I end up going to bed just so I can get the little bit of sleep that I can get. I don't know how long this blog is going to be..but I'm just going to write and just be a open book for a minute and I'm just going to share this all with the world.

In August of this year I will be entering into my last year of my 20's. I've been thinking about this a lot all while deciding what I want to do this year for my birthday. As I was thinking about all of this it hit me that your 20's a lot of stuff can happen, and it also made me ask the question "When does it all start to fall into place?" I know that answer now "To each his own in his own time." I've been saying that a lot to some of my friends and I'm finding very true. I don't know how or why, but recently a huge wave of peace has washed over me. I decided to stop working at the gym because it hit me that I like working out for me and teaching others is cool, but I don't want to do it under a corporate run gym. I'm thinking about taking on a more private clientele for myself in the future, but right now I really just want to work on me and me only.

I've been stretching myself thin lately and not taking days off from my other jobs and it's starting to take a toll on me so I've had to designate the same off days at both places just so I can relax and not feel crazy tired. I'm working out harder than ever and realizing that things really do take time and patience. Watching my stomach go away and seeing my entire body change is pretty darn cool. I've posted a few photos on the instagram just to show off some of my progress. I've been gulping down water like it's my job. I don't know what it is but it's like a youthfulness has returned to me.

Something that I've been doing lately has been distancing myself from my coworkers at my server job. Not that anything has happened to me or anyone. I've learned that for me it's better to keep a very small circle than having anyone else in your business. I've made some really good friends there and I've had some really awesome friends start working there, but I find myself lately loving to just go in make the money that I'm going to make and going home. It's put my focus and goals back into better focus. When I first started working there that was my sole purpose and I got sidetracked by getting caught up. I've been doing way better financially at work due to this whole change in focus while at work. No more late night bar crawls after work, because I know I have to be at the gym the next day, no eating the food there unless it's my cash/trainer meal..even then it's just chicken or a salad (No cheese, or crutons.)

With that being said I'm also no longer "Eating where I shit!" That means I will not be dating or sleeping with anyone else from work. It's not worth it for me really. I've had one failed relationship from that already, and I tried to rekindle that but when a friendship was decided afterward to move on. I don't want to be involved with co-workers in that way just because NEW YORK is HUGE and there are plenty if guys out here. I'm reveling in my single life right now, and it's really the first time in my life where I can say I'm ok with it. I stay so busy that where do I really have time for anyone else but me. Now I'm not saying I'm cutting off dating. I love going on dates. I've been on a few recently, and just by branching out of my own comfort zone and reservations I've met some quality guys. It's nice to know that I have options in a way. Because the next relationship that I do have, I'd like it to last for awhile you know? I've started to see more and more of what I want from the next person I'm with.

At the beginning of the end of my 28th year of life it now starts to feel like I'm finding my footing. Cutting people off has become SO easy, just telling things straight up has been easy, living within my means, being honest, and just being ME and odd has been great. I'm reading books, exploring more of the city, making awesome new friends, and just taking life..day by day.

It's a wonderful feeling not having to compare myself to others and where I'm at in life. I'm growing...I'm living and that's what matters the most!

Well g2g PEACE