I needed to take a break from this blogging situation because I wasn't doing anything but being depressing and just updating about what has been going on in my life.
So here's the deal...I'm just going to blog at random and whatever grabs my attention.
I celebrated my one year anniversary here in NYC and I decided to make some pretty big changes that are now in full effect. This summer has been one HUGE enlightenment about who I am and who I really want to be. Since moving to this city it's really been kicking my ass left and right. Some of it good and some of it not so good. When I first got here I hit the ground running auditioning like a speed demon and getting callback after callback and not landing anything, but that's ok not everyone get something right off the bat. I was going out everyday with my best bud/brother Jordan and we were rocking this city every night. I found a job my first week here and I even started seeing someone right when I moved here....needless to say one night the guy said something very ignorant and I got off the train and never spoke to him again. Not really sorry about it either! ;) Later on I'd meet another guy who I'd date for sometime and needless to say I ended up learning more about myself with him than I ever had before...and that guy is still one of the most enduring people I look up too. I got cast in two shows here and one ended before we opened due to Hurricane Sandy, but the other show stretched my acting and struck a cord with me.
In the midst of all these events I lost A large amount of weight. I moved here 210lbs and now I'm at 180lbs and I've got 20 more lbs to go!
This city has done something to me that I can't even really put down in words. I've explored my sexuality, I've pushed boundaries with things and people I would've never done back home and I've even..and this is the biggest one of them all...I've TAKEN CHANCES. I've taken chances. I have this huge fear of failure and rejection. Not every chance I took was a good one, but I feel I've learned so much from them all. I took a chance on Love, drugs, and alcohol..all which I'm willing to discuss and will discuss later on if you chose to follow these insane blogs.
This spring and summer as a single man has actually been a really good one. I think it's so important to know what it feels like to be by yourself before I let anyone back in my life. I'm adjusting to my new look and self and not letting it get to my head. I can tell the difference between the guys that just want to hit it and the guys that want to date me. The only thing crazy about this scene up here is that I've found that so many guys play into the stereotypes up here A LOT. Even at my gym the Gym Queens each have there own cliques and its actually pretty funny to me. The other day while I was changing in the locker room one guy who runs with a certain group at the gym came up behind me so he could touch my legs...that shit through me OFF!!! "You've got some killer legs" he said and I replied "Thank you" and quickly dipped out. I'm not trying to get kicked out of the gym for you dude. NOT TODAY! (insert laugh)
Besides my so called "love" life...I've been devouring theatre like its my job, but I'm really looking to transition from stage to screen. I've done two short films and shot a commercial...and I booked another commercial that I'll be shooting next month. I gotta keep me head in what I came up here for, but I also want to bartend and get certified as a personal trainer...I can do it all right?
I've learned that I do so much, that I don't make much time for my personal life...and that's a problem because I do miss my friends ..but anyone who really knows me knows that I never like to be still for more than a second..I need to be doing something.
This blog is so random right? That's what I meant for this one to be...thought vomit!
Well, I'm still a hopeless romantic who wants to be Prince Charming...not Cinderella.
LOVE AND LIGHT Y'ALL (Still a southern guy in a big city.)
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